My birthday came and went without much fanfare really. Just had a normal dinner with work mates and then proceeded to what we called "clubbing"!! Went to Rain at Mont Kiara and it turned out to be a terribly bad choice!!! For a friday night it was a real let down....it was pathetic, no crowd at all and the music was super lousy!! Luckily there were pool tables so we had to channel our boredom to that...sigh
That was not my real concern anyway...I have friends wishing me BUT the person or persons I was waiting for to either sms or at least call me never materilised. I had expected it but then some where inside me I was still hoping for something. This is my most down and sad birthday I have ever went through for the past few years. Oh...both my favourite aunties as well as sisters were the very first people to wished me so I was happy for that moment. Jessica and Shebear gave me two very lovely T-shirts...and I loved it!! Muaks muaks...
I supposed I should'nt expect so much huh...knowing the current situation. So at least the answer is very obvious now..."the river of no return". I will wait no matter what....months, years..what else can I do.
I think of you each and every day and I miss you almost every minute of the day.
Memories of you will be with me forever....just like a tattoo I will always have you with me.
Auf Wiedersehen for now.....
Monday 22 October 2007
Tuesday 16 October 2007
The Leaf Has Overturned
It sure has been a hell of a one and a half month since I last updated my blog! I don't think I would want to go through that again. Work or personal matters..it both sucks to the maximum.
These past few months I have learnt tremendously in Spade be it good or bad. Though I am wiser it did drained me physically and mentally so much that I actually started smoking again. Yeah..I know it takes two to tango...my will power has let me down again.
The streak of bad luck was like a never-ending marathon...my car wind screen got smashed, the painting I brought from Bali was gone together with some other treasured stuffs. Have to admit it was my carelessness that led to it. No use crying over spilled milk..I supposed...sigh.
As I approach my 42 years on earth, I think my luck is changing for the better. Suddenly, all things seems to be shining brightly again!! A little patience and endurance does work actually. Godsend perhaps...ah always never lose faith in HIM. "Whenever a door closed, another window open" Suddenly I feel lucky again and all I need to do is to keep being positive and not think about stupid things or let other stuffs drown me. Ignorance is bliss...so true. Mind matters: Think Not, Want Not, Ponder Not, Crazy Not.
My dear ones, Give me a choice....not just a choice between cheese and ham BUT the possibility to think for myself.
Keeping my fingers cross so tightly....the good luck will be here to stay for a long long time.
God Bless
These past few months I have learnt tremendously in Spade be it good or bad. Though I am wiser it did drained me physically and mentally so much that I actually started smoking again. Yeah..I know it takes two to tango...my will power has let me down again.
The streak of bad luck was like a never-ending marathon...my car wind screen got smashed, the painting I brought from Bali was gone together with some other treasured stuffs. Have to admit it was my carelessness that led to it. No use crying over spilled milk..I supposed...sigh.
As I approach my 42 years on earth, I think my luck is changing for the better. Suddenly, all things seems to be shining brightly again!! A little patience and endurance does work actually. Godsend perhaps...ah always never lose faith in HIM. "Whenever a door closed, another window open" Suddenly I feel lucky again and all I need to do is to keep being positive and not think about stupid things or let other stuffs drown me. Ignorance is bliss...so true. Mind matters: Think Not, Want Not, Ponder Not, Crazy Not.
My dear ones, Give me a choice....not just a choice between cheese and ham BUT the possibility to think for myself.
Keeping my fingers cross so tightly....the good luck will be here to stay for a long long time.
God Bless
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