A new chapter...

How do I decide and how do I live? Good question really.

It is that time and that sort of feelings again. Few days ago I was at breaking point but now I am at peace within myself. I will accept fate. Changes in circumstances are forcing me to take certain plans back to the drawing board. I am uncertain whether all these stem from my own ignorance or my lack of understanding of the whole event. Confusion plagues much of the past few weeks, as do fluctuating desires. Hidden tensions must be brought out into the open.

Doesn't really matter now...whatever is done cannot be undone so no use crying over spilled milk. Just move on Beck ...and get back on track.

But I must say I have one major problem with CAFB or RPKK. Some thing has to be done or fuck shit..someone has to do something or it will be mayhem soon!! Oh hell...I no longer give a damn about the whole fucked up situation!! Whoever is going sit in my hot seat I sincerely wish you all the best...you jolly well need it.

At times, I would want to dig my heels in as stubbornly as I wish...perhaps too - I feel it's payback time for someone who hasn't been quite honest. But revenge isn't usually the answer.

Suddenly, I felt light..no more heavy burden strap on my shoulder. Job satisfaction can be hard to achieve, especially if your heart's not really in it.

I need to say my thanks to you. (you know who you are). Thanks to you, the world is a better place, I am a better person. Somehow I see the changes in my everything, my attitude is more positive and I am happy.

Midweek will finalise a new chapter in my life, follow up with positive action...giving me more freedom to rediscover alot of other things. Things I should be doing. Promises that need to be kept. There's much to be said for being in the right place at the right time. Mind you, it's not always luck. Its more GOD SENT and often prior knowledge that gets us there, with valuable information often within whispering distances.

Time to stop dreaming. It's about time to start putting those unfinish, brilliant ideas, promises and plans into motion instead. And I am not alone.


I might have lost something but most importantly I gained something more precious in return.

My goodbye will come sooner than expected.

This is indeed a blessing in disguise for me...

Riot at Jogoya

Nah...the dinner that was long overdue!!

Finally, at Jogoya Starhill, 19 March 2008!

I must say it was rather fun, the girls were laughing their heads off. They took photos and photos like they were 'Super Film Stars'!!

My Court Jester was attacking all the soft shell crabs, David was like a glutton, Esther was like a baby that needs babysitting *laughs*!! Yip was the centre all the girls attention through out the night!!! The rest...sigh!

ME..ehehe..I was thinking about funny things and laughing myself silly and oh yes...laughing at my Court Jester ...besides getting annoyed with Panty Man!

Have a fantastic weekend babes.

Kopi Queen

MoonChess...I was impressed when I first saw you and I am still impressed 2 years later. Cool and steady as ever with a large horizon for artistic creations you leaves us very much in awe most of the time with your works.


Though we seldom talk but when we do talk, it is always meaningful in some ways.

Small yet fiesty at times, I would say you are the best JAD Spade will ever get for a long time to come and you left unexpectedly last week seeking greener pasture elsewhere. At least you have the guts to let go of something for something else. That is what life should be I supposed. You go girl!!!

I shall miss you, we shall all miss you close to where the heart is. I wouldn't mind another game of paintball with you in the same team

You take care and keep well Pretzel....

Ooopps..BN ripped apart

Aiseh man...Malaysians have spoken!! Well done!!

We have the Oppositions forming up goverment in Perak, Selangor, Kedah, Kelantan and Penang. It was in some ways expected what more is there to debate about. Was it the people's resentment that did it? The top 3 who were expected to win hands down lost....

The Sun headline today - "Pak Lah: I'm not quitting". Does that mean more hike up on petrol price, toll and others???


I don't give a fuck really who won and who is running the states but will the new leaders please cover the pot holes....

Maybe I

You were right...it came over me what never been before it slid under my door and I now I find the reason to admit I been too lazy.

But in this life , in this atmosphere I am starting to believe the other side of me but whose to know ....so honey surely one of us is crazy.

Maybe I...not so easily stirred, maybe I ...I got to love someone, maybe I.. I ride the storm for you..maybe I..I be the doom in your room.

So now I stand I never stood before ...whats better left don't say just don't bury the dead when you alive...I think I might just stay the night.

I am not trying to take you baby...am not trying to hear to see, am not trying to take your soul baby...I am just trying to believe.

Maybe I.....I am not the one for your love, maybe I.. I will be your heaven above...

Crucify me

My dear lord...can you please tell me what to do? Or have I not been praying to you of late that you are ignoring me? If not, please send me to the brimstone sea of boiling fire!!

It is capital "D" all the way...despair, disappointed, desperate...and so DEAD!!!

For GOD, you are "A light that never darkened" in my eyes.

My work station

5 days a week I am surrounded by reports, proposals, invoices etc!! I am sick of it. My only little space for my books, so called books or thesaurus and notes.

Sitting in front is my AM, next to me both my SAE and AE. I do have the perfect place in the entire office really as all the things happen right in front of me.

Another bloody long day at work rushing proposal!

What the hell did we do to deserve all this...blast!!