X Smoke, X Drinks

Recently I read the newspaper that Gazza has been admitted to hospital due to excessive drinking...sigh. The great George Best died because of that too and so did many others whether they are known or unknown personalities.

I think it is about time as well I will announce that I shall and I will quit both the above. Somehow as much as I love to drink, I realised after drinking it makes me a different person and not a very good person so to say. Drinks run my emotions. I tend to say hurtful things which I am not supposed to. I am a mean person when I consume too much. I lose myself, I have no control over my temper and worst I wake up smelling like alcohol in the morning! It tires me out each time....

This past weeks I have been drinking and smoking rather excessively and it is not doing both my lungs and livers any good either.

Before it gets worst, before I lose you, lose myself and lose everything it has to stop now.

As agreed, please walk away should I break my promise to you....

Thanks for looking out for me. I will not disappoint you again.

Why are we at war with each other?

Normally, I thought CNY brings good luck to everyone...guess this time I was wrong again.

Why are we at each other's throat so much? After what happened in 2007, do we need to take this path again? I bruised you, you bruised me, we all bruised so easily..infact too easily.

Well I don't know about the others but I am really tired of all these. My team at war with other team under the same roof. Are we all letting our emotions running our decision and controlling our daily moods? Can someone give me an answer for that? It is draining every single of my heart beat and I am afraid it might just kill me and drive away the rest of them someday.

Everyone is so tensed up. Coming to work is like a bomb waiting to explode! We are walking on very very thin ice. And someone will has to pay for it when it breaks.

Aren't we all supposed to be passionate about our work huh? What the hell trigger all these or who the hell trigger it? Why? Are all these catfights necessary? Is it worth it? In the end we just hurt each other even more.

Though I survived the Baptism Of Fire, my heart no longer feel for Spade.

Someone please pull the trigger....

Amazing Grace

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That save a wretch like me...
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind but now I see

Twas Grace that taught..
my heart to fear
And Grace, my fears relieved..
How precious did Grace appear
the hour I first believed

Through many dangers, toils and snares..
we have already come
T'was Grace that bought us safe thus far...
and Grace will lead us home

The Lord has promise good to me...
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be..
as long as life endures

When we've been here ten thousand years...
bright shining as the sun
We've no less days to sing God's praise...
then when we've first begun

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me...
I once was lost but now am found,
was blind, but now I see"

Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself...

Happiness is having you in my "garden of eternal bliss'

Funny how the world revolve around each of us..we just never know what will bring us next or what to expect. To expect the unexpected is such a powerful yet truthful 4 words.

Today is the 5th day of the Chinese Lunar Year of the rodden. How time flies, just last week everyone were so eagerly anticipating the arrival of CNY and now with ablink of an eyelit we are into the 6th day by tomorrow and all of us are a year older...sigh. Surprisingly though this year CNY has been relatively quiet compared to the past few years. Not much fireworks around, didn't see any lion dance at all...least not for this year. I have been eating and drinking like a horse...yesterday I finally vommited my guts out!!! And honestly I felt good after that!!!

You know the beautiful old parchment in which the sun and the moon keeps their diary....it is the most ravishing place ever I come acrossed so far. Somehow it managed to retain all my love for it and most importantly my sanity during that period. Short but sweet...it was absolutely deserved though. That was the best I have ever felt for a long time to come.

I remain faithfully to "you" as I first saw you the first time on 11 January 2007 at 7pm and thirteen months later where the lights went down the horizon.

At least you were happy and smiling for me then and I say 'yes' you looked wonderful that night and every other night......

The art of sweeping floors!!!

Good day all...how has the past few weeks been? I hope all in excellent shape with CNY around the corner which brings me to the main topic of my intented subject.

I was reading NST just on Sunday on my star and its says my entire apartment need a thorough spring cleaning of some sort!!! So off I went to the bathroom and loaded all the necessary detergent, dettol, stain removers and all I can gatherlah...oh yes including vinegar!! Mum and some of my married friends told me vinegar is an excellent stain remover.

But before that, I had to sweep the whole damn floor (before pouring all the killers on the floor)...you know sweeping with a legal broom!! Funny thing is I can't seems to sweep away the dust, hairs or whateverlah the way I wanted them to be swept away...and especially definitely not the way the maids sweeps them!!! I tell you the way they sweep the floor...fu-yo-yoh ada style, gaya and most of the time they left me and the floor breathless!!! The way they handle the broom, the twist of the arm, the body language...they dances so well together. Perfect match...eh, then I guess the condition of the broom also make a difference. Ha ha..dont' tell me a broom will sweep well if it is left with just a few feathers or whatever that is called!!! I am gobsmacked by how the floor can be so clean and clear of anything!!! There is not a single hair you can find still floating in between...hello I am dead serious okay! You don't believe me why don't you try sweeping the floor and see for yourself and, if you are as good as your housemaid then fine, kiss yourself in the mirror and if you are not then slap yourself so that I can laugh at you!!! (LOL)

I am not a fan of housemaids really...don't you fellas read the newspaper? Tiap tiap hari mesti ada berita pasal tentang pembantu rumah!!! Ekeke....here is how I classify them by their country of origin and their intention in "OUR" Country. No pun intended but it is true my loves...

A) The Indonesian (Susantis): They love to have men randomly/ They micro wave your children / They love to steal all your jewelries and disappeared as and when they like.

B) The Filipinos (Marias): They talk too much / They think they are damn good singers..how to become a singer when "where you parked your car become where you "Farked" your car!!! Oh my.. / They slapped the elderly especially those bedridden one.

C) The Chinese fr. China (Ah Lians): THEY DO NOTHING BUT STEAL PEOPLES HUSBAND!!!

There....but then again no denying, after seeing my friend's maid cleaning my apartment last year I was lost for words. Anything she touched turned brighty and shinny. From the floors to the windows, the stove..every god damn single thing!! Oh my god...for a few seconds I just stood there with my mouth wide opened....

Hmmphhh, I didn't clean my apartment for the next few months after that...

Monica and my 2 darling nephews

Photo taken at : The Chinese Restaurant at Eastin Hotel - 6 January 2008. The dim sum was terrible!!!

Have not seen them for awhile now. Monica is as cheerful as ever. Sean and Bryan as bright and cheeky as usual. Hats off to you Mon...you and Goh are wonderful parents.

Welcome home mum....

Beck's year of the faith, prosperity and happiness

I did not really anticipated or expected to get the call on 31st December 2007 but it came and well I have to admit I was happy in a way. There is nothing much I can complaint really...at least I did managed to spent the last day of 2007 with the person I wanted to see. Whatever the intention was I don't want to know and I don't wish to pursue. At least for that few hours I was happy. Thank you so much.

Happy New Year everyone...we are into the 6th day of 2008 and there are another 359 more days to go.

As we are approaching the Chinese Lunar New Year in about a month's time lets hope the year of the Rat will bring prosperity and much happiness to each and everyone.

My astrological zodiac, Libra is telling me that we often succeed because we don't set our goals too high ....hmmm that is fine but I think we deserve better as we will never get where we want to be until we learn to set the bar a little higher. After all we are the charmers amongst all the other zodiac signs....the most alluring and stylish. Either love us or hate us *laughs*

This year will be MY YEAR in terms of everything, foundation in work, partner in relationship, accumulate more wealth, staying healthy and whatever that comes my way. Being ruthless is another thing. Lets be confidence here....Those will be my goals and I will make sure and I promise it will come out good.

People come into each other life for a reason and I am still waiting to find out what it is...

We are all connected, and we are all One